There’s a reason why we are here
I discovered my medial gift during the most challenging time of my life.
From my young years I searched for the meaning of my life. I felt that there must be more to life than what I experienced. I tried different jobs and studied in several fields. I became a qi gong instructor, a yoga teacher and learned how to play tibetan sound bowls and gongs. I studied to become a certified massage therapist and a Reiki healer and started my career in these fields. But something was still missing, I felt lost and unhappy. There were times when I didn’t want to live anymore.
Dark night of the soul
The pain in my soul grew. On top of this, my father had recurring depressions that finally led him to commit suicide. My mother was in an alcohol abuse. I was drawn to dysfunctional relationships. I felt like I was trapped in a black hole and I didn´t find any meaning with my life. Slowly, I went into a deep depression.
In the midst of this despair, I was guided by a soft voice within me that told me to go to India. This was the beginning of a long journey into myself.
In India I came in contact with meditation which opened up a small hope in me. Meditation, alongside years of therapy and many different courses in personal development, helped me to slowly begin to heal.
On my journey of around 20 years of deep soul work, one important key was to become aware of and heal my co-dependency pattern.
I decided to take a 1.5 year training to become a drug and alcohol therapist, where I learned about addiction and co-dependency. I started to attend ACA´s 12-step meetings for adult children in dysfunktional families and worked with the 12-step program in a group.
I realized that my co-dependency was a survival behavior that I had learned when I was a child, and that I had continued with in all my relationships as an adult. I felt very alone, exhausted and with a feeling that I didn´t fit in anywhere.
I had learned to be very good at taking responsibility for other people and had become very sensitive to what they felt, but I had completely turned off my own needs and feelings.
As I progressed in this work and understood more of my patterns, I could start to change them and become more loving to myself. I started to listen more to my own feelings and needs and learned to say no to relationships that was not nourishing to me.
I also understood that the 12-step program is a spiritual program, and I started to create a relationship with God for the first time. God had been a negative word for me, connected to religion.
But I realized it had the same meaning as the words universe, existence and greater power had to me, and I started to connect more and more to this universal love and with my true essence.
Photo: Maria Obed
In 2010, I discovered and started to share my medial gift.
To this day, meditation is an important part of my daily routine and my life is now colored by all feelings but with a witnessing presence, and mostly by joy, love and gratitude.
I see that the darkness and pain that I went through was a necessary experience for a shift to happen within me and for me to become a pure channel for the spiritual guides.
Through the essential work with myself, I came in contact with my life purpose: to share my psychic gift and my life wisdom.
I reach out with my Medial Healing sessions online to clients all over the world. I also have physical meetings in Molkom, Värmland, where I live, and sometimes in Stockholm.
My deepest intention is to help people connect with their true being, their inner light and their gifts so that they can live a more meaningful and authentic life.
Feeling at home in ourselves, experiencing inner peace, joy and love is the most natural state we can experience.
With love,
Amrita